“Pain demands to be felt”, you say.
Can profound thoughts be experienced?
I can’t sleep
without listening to Beethoven
one of my habits.
I cry over fictional characters
I can find solace in books.
I can think of hundred things
we can share
grief is one.
I have eternal questions
that haunt me
but I don’t necessarily
have to know the answers.
Like Sisyphus I’m content
to push the rock to the summit
and repeat the process
after the rock falls down again.
But then I think for a moment
what if the” last good kiss I had
was years ago?”
note: I’m currently reading The Fault In Our Stars by John Green. The lines “pain demands to be felt” and “last good kiss” are taken from The Fault In Our Stars.
Books I finished reading: Tinkers by Paul Harding and Levels of Life by Julian Barnes. One of the essays Barnes wrote is on Grief, its phases and faces.
photo: pond in Kennedy Park, Napa Valley, CA
A walk in Kennedy Park along Napa River. Sunny and unusually warm (70+) for winter.
Drought looms. We need rain in the valley and snow in the mountains.
“Everything changes…That things change is the reason why you suffer in this world and become discouraged. [But] when you change your understanding and your way of living, then you can completely enjoy your life in each moment. The evanescence of things is the reason you enjoy your life.”
-attributed to Shunryu Suzuki -quoted in Eleven Rings by Phil Jackson
to look up the sky for designs
to look at a river for reflections
I become confused with metaphors.
with my camera
Did I tell you what happened?
six degrees minus one
the proximity of our separation
we sit across each other
a coffee shop community table
listening to our own hearts
let your day unfold in moments
open to uncertainties and ruins of the world
~“long experience of love”, once, and intensely.