Before the year ends
An expanse of a year or years
You will look back and reflect, a self chitchat:
How far did you go in the four quadrants?
Encounters of your body, mind, heart, and soul.
You want to look
For signs of transformation or coherence
Habits and struggle to interpret health
Or commitment to deliberate practice and growth,
How far did you walk, how long did you dance?
Meeting with spiritual teachers did you learn
Mindfulness, contemplate the ultimate reality,
Soul’s journey to what is, the presence
Approach to your emotions, painting the colors
Where will your heart turn, what will your heart embrace?
The unfolding, reversal of thought
Tossing ideas, catch and throw and catch again
Doubt may envelope your desires
Arrangement of imagination, how to start and proceed
The choices are several, relevance and pretenses
Being careful of pleasures and enhancers
Without ruminating to death or nonsense
You accept the invitation to open a book
You memorize the wrappings before you unfold
You may have to put the origami pages together again
Before they mutate to different personalities
Pages stained with peanut butter and blueberry jam
As if reminiscing over breakfast
A calming sound of pages turning,
Your voice from reading the text
You are thinking absurd and elegant
Riddles to spark creativity.
You confront the question:
Is life’s greatness and simplicity measured
By how far or how near you offer
Your heart for goring, to the bull’s horns?
The morning before to envision a new world
You have to plan for New Year’s Eve
But pause for a moment, even for a briefest moment
“Hold the moment in your awareness,
A moment of mindfulness,” of gratitude.